I'm realizing I can't blame him. I shouldn't hate him and I'm done trying to convince myself to. I'm not going to blame him for not loving me back, and not wanting me the way I desesperately desire him. I'm not going to tell other girls that he is a bad guy because he didn't find what he was searching for in me. Tough it hurts a lot, I'll try to understand that people don't always try to hurt you, sometimes it just happens.